tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17433282247504491322024-03-06T03:44:26.865-05:00An Ethiopian Adoption BlessingA single woman’s journal to her thoughts, hopes, dreams, emotions and the process she goes through to become a mother.Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.comBlogger310125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-69169623477701580092011-06-30T05:57:00.005-04:002011-06-30T06:04:12.416-04:00Introducing Isley RahwaOn June 29th the sweetest face ever became my precious daughter. I am over the moon happy! It has been a very long seven years to parenthood and four years in the adoption process. Whew. But look at this face, it was worth it in the end. I love this girl! Did I say how happy I am yet? :-) Will post more this weekend. Thank you for following this crazy journey in my life. xoxox<div><br /></div><div><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuTb5dLieYpxO6LVxBy2u7pthfPft9ydzxGjQa3Qg9mZoZDtkRykGQDw0sFSQz73Gzd01c67N_1HiE3qg7SJg60TEHeXgV39xc3xRT2ImTmwMsap0igA2PR2ICb-hygwzzViQiXz5Um8WB/s1600/100_1787.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuTb5dLieYpxO6LVxBy2u7pthfPft9ydzxGjQa3Qg9mZoZDtkRykGQDw0sFSQz73Gzd01c67N_1HiE3qg7SJg60TEHeXgV39xc3xRT2ImTmwMsap0igA2PR2ICb-hygwzzViQiXz5Um8WB/s400/100_1787.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5623950882663042882" /></a></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com29tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-63679878846761558252011-06-18T01:32:00.003-04:002011-06-18T01:35:23.393-04:00Today Brought More Changes...Today brought more changes and more uncertainty. There are no answers. Nothing is clear. However, I have made the decision to begin living my life not in fear, hate or worry, but in peace and joy. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, or how long this process will continue to take, but I won't waste anymore time stressing about it. It is wasted energy. What will be, will be.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-77010826458165059032011-06-15T20:44:00.002-04:002011-06-15T20:46:31.276-04:00New Court DateI woke up yesterday and decided I was going to be at peace no matter what. And lo and behold that afternoon I received a new court date. June 23! Prayerfully I will receive a ruling that day and can show off pictures of my baby girl finally! Keep your fingers crossed and hands clasped.Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-51994629331420328352011-06-12T22:11:00.006-04:002011-06-12T22:35:06.356-04:00The Golden TopBesides complaining I actually have been doing some fun things while waiting for Ms. Isley to come home. I finished updating her dresser, which has now taken up residence in the kitchen while I work on the ceiling for her room. Yes, her ceiling! It is a harlequin design similar to the dresser...ahh wait and see. <div><br /></div><div>Before: </div><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1YF6TCFxnRRT9O6J0Daf3ce4s_wzCqoY7c7mbej8u7K0jEWtmT5Zd2Q9Zg-v4tJXtDrnWU6gYKDAjxWzTkU1iNISjAFeqsWLY-x3Zk3eLu-ZE91BUB5nJazI8lwfljA_RHXoh8jAruJ4q/s1600/IMG_1287.JPG" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 272px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1YF6TCFxnRRT9O6J0Daf3ce4s_wzCqoY7c7mbej8u7K0jEWtmT5Zd2Q9Zg-v4tJXtDrnWU6gYKDAjxWzTkU1iNISjAFeqsWLY-x3Zk3eLu-ZE91BUB5nJazI8lwfljA_RHXoh8jAruJ4q/s400/IMG_1287.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5617522495891614994" /></a><br /><br />What was wrong with the before you ask? It just wasn't girly and youthful enough. So, with a little turquoise paint from my floor project, gold leafing, green frog tape, spray shellac and new colorful knobs, I created a beauty for my beauty. <br /><br />After:<br /><br />Disclaimer: the room was a little dark when I took the pictures, so you can't see how beautiful it really is...so much for cell phone cameras, but you get the idea. <br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjo8ex5nr_ogGMkwshhoXL7SG2LXF8appyyun3eb-7BTdEokaYTPdrtxnq3VNfr3k_JdTdLCYIEBc888oQ4qaoHia5C3mN1lXvFHCtZsuzUIxmmQZCGfC6Pjud4wRsnYk7X3KVHkHHKjPZw/s1600/IMAG0159.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 297px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjo8ex5nr_ogGMkwshhoXL7SG2LXF8appyyun3eb-7BTdEokaYTPdrtxnq3VNfr3k_JdTdLCYIEBc888oQ4qaoHia5C3mN1lXvFHCtZsuzUIxmmQZCGfC6Pjud4wRsnYk7X3KVHkHHKjPZw/s400/IMAG0159.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5617523701366649218" /></a><br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRhQT0ubPBaPyN8qIy7yUABXaW4hz-qaHBCkAcOt1n8WwmGU9CXYp74txEn-LXquJO2xZtVLc_lcj3IuUdYgzIThVmfOFSTe98K70LLCEHQMBhyCFx1P-rCfrMPLv-jOOlpL582Xb9Xz5S/s1600/IMAG0158.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 239px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRhQT0ubPBaPyN8qIy7yUABXaW4hz-qaHBCkAcOt1n8WwmGU9CXYp74txEn-LXquJO2xZtVLc_lcj3IuUdYgzIThVmfOFSTe98K70LLCEHQMBhyCFx1P-rCfrMPLv-jOOlpL582Xb9Xz5S/s400/IMAG0158.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5617524040594207570" /></a>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-56608548570188218532011-06-10T19:23:00.002-04:002011-06-10T19:35:42.164-04:00What's Bugging Me TodayThe other families that didn't pass court received new court dates, but no not Tami. Seriously, I feel like someone has it out for me. The past 6 years have been so incredibly difficult for me, I'm trying so hard to turn it all around, but can a sista get a break? I mean how difficult is it to go see your child, leave them in a foster care center, then have someone say, we will get back to you. I missing all her major milestones, I'm not there to comfort her when she is sad and lonely or see the joy when she smiles. She is going to be more and more delayed with each moment and frankly I'm so over it all. I just want my baby home! Yeah, 4 years of patience is GONE!Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-35230544054380853072011-06-08T22:54:00.003-04:002011-06-08T23:00:52.148-04:00Sorry I kept you. What's eating Tami today?<!--StartFragment--> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt; text-align:center;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace: none"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><br /></span></p><p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt; text-align:center;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace: none"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt; text-align:center;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace: none"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Without a strong rhyme to step to.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" align="center" style="margin-bottom:0in;margin-bottom:.0001pt; text-align:center;mso-pagination:none;mso-layout-grid-align:none;text-autospace: none"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Think of how many weak shows you slept through.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Time's up, I'm sorry I kept you.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Yes, I’m back. It’s been six months. S-I-X.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Since starting my blog this is the longest hiatus yet, but let me tell you.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I need a break from Groundhog Day I seem to be in.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">I know you are sitting there reading this saying one of the following things:<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpFirst" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo1"><span style="font-family:Symbol;mso-fareast-font-family:Symbol; mso-bidi-font-family:Symbol;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">·<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Tami what happened with the call?<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo1"><span style="font-family:Symbol;mso-fareast-font-family:Symbol; mso-bidi-font-family:Symbol;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">·<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">D</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial; font-size: -webkit-xxx-large; ">id you go to Ethiopia yet?</span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo1"><span style="font-family:Symbol;mso-fareast-font-family:Symbol; mso-bidi-font-family:Symbol;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">·<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Is Isley home?<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo1"><span style="font-family:Symbol;mso-fareast-font-family:Symbol; mso-bidi-font-family:Symbol;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">·<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">What the #$%@ is going on?</span></p><p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l1 level1 lfo1"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial;font-size:21px;"> Well, over here in Tamiland - remember the place that is all about me – pretty much it is the same crap, except with a different situation.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Oh, do I sound a tad bit angry, bitter or fed up?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Yup!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Pretty much I am!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I will fill you in on all the little details in the upcoming posts, but let me answer a few outstanding questions.</span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpFirst" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">1.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">The call.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I was in total shock and then I looked at my daughter’s picture and wasn’t sure if the agency didn’t make a mistake.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Truth. <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">2.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">The referral.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I got over my insanity and began falling in love with the photo and the idea of finally being a mother.<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">3.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Ethiopia.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I went to Ethiopia and fell totally and completely in love with my daughter…crying on the way out because I had no idea when I would go back to bring her home for good and that was March 13.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">4.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Isley.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>WOW.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>My baby girl is amazing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I love MY KID and she loves her momma.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>The nannies at the foster care center said she doesn’t like new people and they were amazed that she did not fuss one time with me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Not one time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>We were like yin and yang from the first moment we saw each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Did I mention how beautiful and sweet she is?<o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">5.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Waiting.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>My waiting has been terrible!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I received my referral Dec. 8<sup>th</sup>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Had court on March 9<sup>th</sup>. Failed court on June 8<sup>th</sup>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Did I mention June 7<sup>th</sup> was my birthday?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Thanks for the memories.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpMiddle" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">6.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Changes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I probably hold the recognition for being the person in this process the longest.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I have experienced almost every change that Ethiopian adoption can give you and can I tell you…I am worn the hell out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Sorry, I’m trying to keep this as G rated as possible, but I am <span style="mso-tab-count:1"> </span>EMOTIONALLY SPENT! <o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoListParagraphCxSpLast" style="text-indent:-.25in;mso-list:l0 level1 lfo2"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-fareast-font-family:Arial; mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;"><span style="mso-list:Ignore">7.<span style="font:7.0pt "Times New Roman""> </span></span></span><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Now what?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Well, I keep waiting. I received the referral of my beauty when she was 3 months and now she is 9 months.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>At best it will be two more months before she comes home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Let’s not talk about the worst.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>If the worst happens I’ll be collecting for a second trip to spend more time with my baby.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">That’s about it!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Sorry for the months delay and for this post not being encouraging, supportive or giving more information.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Frankly, I just needed an outlet to provide a $%(* fest!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I so need a different way to release all these emotions and kickboxing once a week is not enough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I need to kick box EVERYDAY!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;mso-bidi-font-family:Arial;font-size:16.0pt;">Oh, I don’t even have the patience/energy right now to spell, grammar or content check this, so this is a one thought, one type, hit blogger post!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Check it in your head for me, I know you all are way smart! </span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:Arial;font-size:21px;">Maybe I’ll do more of those in the upcoming future: What the heck is eating (or beating) Tami today?</span></p> <!--EndFragment-->Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-62608532720123866012010-12-11T09:30:00.005-05:002010-12-11T10:13:04.437-05:00You Can Call Her...<b><div><b><br /></b></div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">ISLEY</span></b><br /><br />Yes, Sen and Mercy you were right in the name game. Baby I's name is Isley "R" (oh, yes another letter we cannot share the official name of until we pass court). After looking at that beautiful face I just couldn't stand to call her Baby I again. <div><br /></div><div>And no one got the date guess correct. And Rebecca you were the only one to guess 3 months for Isley's age. Now what do you win? I have no idea! LOL I'm terrible at mailing things, but since I'm in such a great mood these days send me your mailing address and I'll find a little token to send.<br /><br />So, until I write the next post, here are some fun facts about Isley R, she:<br /><ul><li>is a happy and healthy 3 month old (translation...stealing the other kids bottles) </li><li>looks like a chocolate cherub (translation: sweet and beautiful with pouty lips) or an M&M (translation: round and bald head)</li><li>has the biggest prettiest eyes (translation: will be able to wrap everyone around her finger...my girl)</li><li>is very verbal (translation: has a big mouth like the rest of her family)</li><li>loves to play (translation: will be creative)</li><li>has the cutest little smirks and smiles (translation: will get into everything)</li></ul><div><b>Thanks all for being such a great source of support throughout the years</b>. And I am so excited about all the new Gladney APs that stopped by to say congrats...what an awesome community! Now, I can finally get to some real posts again! I'm even going to get a new blog and I have a new title I'm excited about! I'll move over when Isley comes home and the adventure begins. Wanna know what it is or should I wait? See I'm pretty verbal too (translation: big mouth). ;-)</div></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com30tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-22169474207962102172010-12-09T14:07:00.001-05:002010-12-09T14:09:39.886-05:00Wanna Play Another Game?<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRw6i6WO6qyWpc_mesq635J2r_Pzfd8Qw4EX8TMpvjX9ox0GLX8Pnk8-qeM2iVoCqdV0gt_sjKp0aGe1mkBuOaLq4wPsmIacwcqsT6RfrBw2ez6hK_Qm3fOhbSsER8jaW0BN7zOv4WClLZ/s1600/Rahwa+12.7.10+-+12_2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 336px; height: 104px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRw6i6WO6qyWpc_mesq635J2r_Pzfd8Qw4EX8TMpvjX9ox0GLX8Pnk8-qeM2iVoCqdV0gt_sjKp0aGe1mkBuOaLq4wPsmIacwcqsT6RfrBw2ez6hK_Qm3fOhbSsER8jaW0BN7zOv4WClLZ/s400/Rahwa+12.7.10+-+12_2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548761648921031410" /></a><br />What do you think this is?Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com34tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-72314809533649505642010-12-03T07:24:00.003-05:002010-12-03T07:29:09.467-05:00Want to start Again With the Date Game?Well, since I haven't gotten a referral yet, that means no one was a winner. So, how about trying again...nothing beats a failure but a try. What day will I receive a referral? LOL Have fun! (ha ha) In the meantime I guess I'll send off paperwork for updating fingerprints! sighhTamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-75012022819257144012010-11-28T20:14:00.004-05:002010-11-28T20:28:53.688-05:00And I Wait...<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOO0eSFRoYOKDNuzxlbdLqzo12QlZy9Np3YC4afKCgdOD8R8HKYExMhnEBccnUT_IJT6sXiHIhpXaDkRoO5hMupcIGCARwwH5SD2X3t7wh48tULiHrX-hVK7M2C-L7uvjL47iyvkz4bD-s/s1600/Slide1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOO0eSFRoYOKDNuzxlbdLqzo12QlZy9Np3YC4afKCgdOD8R8HKYExMhnEBccnUT_IJT6sXiHIhpXaDkRoO5hMupcIGCARwwH5SD2X3t7wh48tULiHrX-hVK7M2C-L7uvjL47iyvkz4bD-s/s400/Slide1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5544774296636258626" /></a>This is pretty much what my family room looks like right now. Me trying to keep busy, with my phone(s) on the table, food, nail polish, bills, comforters, laundry, movies, books...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">ughh</span>, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">sighhhh</span>. What is this like week 226? Seriously! I'm over this already! Baby I will be like 20 or better yet I'll be like 60 when she comes home. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Oy</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">vey</span>!<div><br /></div><div>Edit: I officially calculated how long I have been in this process and as of Nov. 28<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">th</span> it has been 1,255 Days -- or -- 179 Weeks and 2 Days. I'm ridiculous and now should be shot (<span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">figuratively</span> please)! I know life happens but <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">ughhhhhhh</span>!</div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-5856320502489085152010-11-23T15:13:00.002-05:002010-11-23T15:15:44.620-05:00ARGHHHHHHHH!Since this is a Christian Blog... I won't say uncool words but WTX%$#! <div><br /></div><div>I am so loosing my mind over here! Shut up Robbin!</div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-60510650571679627922010-11-16T13:34:00.005-05:002010-11-16T14:06:44.109-05:00H&M has finally realized diversity pays the rentI'm not a big H&M shopper. The clothes are cute, but they don't last long. In my youth (yea, I said it) I would have been all over H&M like white on rice, but now I only go in occasionally. Those occasions are when I am with a younger friend who is dying to go or with one of my BFF who is a size negligible and will look good in a brown paper sack (even at age xx...older). Usually I will pick up an item or two but that's it. It's always a great idea to mix the inexpensive with my vintage, TJMaxx and couture pieces. I also hear they have a kids line so this will be awesome for Baby I...well that is until I see how they wash. I've seen a few pieces in the thrift store and they looked trashed! Maybe Not? <div><br /></div><div>While I may not be a fan of shopping at H&M their holiday campaign is fabulous! Look who is represented:<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisAa37fptHU9xWSXd8Tc-jqFhOd5iyb830uUr9dsbuMAsKvfB0S54uZoXAkUzyE_DR8V3aDbxyQ0qRtJnYYoiCUqSe5bjTQ1kZLtNO-Me8DuTkixplzhCnmNac_2im8I3YxY6C1DKE2bSw/s1600/HM-Holiday-2010-Campaign-9.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 343px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisAa37fptHU9xWSXd8Tc-jqFhOd5iyb830uUr9dsbuMAsKvfB0S54uZoXAkUzyE_DR8V3aDbxyQ0qRtJnYYoiCUqSe5bjTQ1kZLtNO-Me8DuTkixplzhCnmNac_2im8I3YxY6C1DKE2bSw/s400/HM-Holiday-2010-Campaign-9.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5540219643978717874" /></a></div>Yay, beautiful Ethiopian and Somalian women - Waris Dirie and Liya Kebde - do your thing! They make me want to go buy something...what the heck, my own stimulus plan! <div><br /></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-33242504418184147432010-11-15T06:51:00.003-05:002010-11-15T07:16:54.896-05:00G-MA's Surprise Baby ShowerMy mother is so excited about Baby I and all of her friends know it! I've finally gotten her under control about asking me "what is going on" because it drives me a little nuts (more than I already am). When people ask me "so, what's going on with your daughter?" I know they mean well, but does anyone not think that they would not know (especially my family) when I receive (and accept) a referral. It will be pretty clear that Baby I is in the house. Oh, yes it will...Baby I will be in the house. And she may even have a name. ;-) <div><br /></div><div>Oh, I digress, this post wasn't supposed to be about me...back to my mother. She is so excited! This past weekend her girlfriends told her they were getting together for drinks and they gave her a grandmother's shower. Awwww. Baby I's first shower! Ok, Tami's friends...you all need to get on it...dang it back to me again. tee hee.<div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Check the goods out below, nice huh? </div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiK7v4F-DEhmDpfaikswO6HTt3lv3X7QLk4AtzGPTdBWpFBYwCWuqLWWnJYlO49NjgW8R4SKyEzD8yJFFVDeN6-i-WZWGqjGCB3iUtHtVVXJ3Joq0OHTi8OOVdJ9n2soPvJI26Zg2XH6jhN/s1600/imagejpeg_2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiK7v4F-DEhmDpfaikswO6HTt3lv3X7QLk4AtzGPTdBWpFBYwCWuqLWWnJYlO49NjgW8R4SKyEzD8yJFFVDeN6-i-WZWGqjGCB3iUtHtVVXJ3Joq0OHTi8OOVdJ9n2soPvJI26Zg2XH6jhN/s400/imagejpeg_2.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539747585546824370" /></a><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-30498049149545665662010-11-05T20:45:00.005-04:002010-11-05T21:14:21.154-04:00Sit still Too Long and I'll Paint You<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZ4aKiZqyDEe-eEi7IrDGB7Zw5jw5hy1bBBmfkojpfEwyG-QcSYftS0o-ahsaC2d_S_wtLa0zxNhBu49kSEWJWQXmXZC8w2J8MQRugxYIRAFqV830SLQmHsihxf9VE9adEAbN12I0-c16C/s1600/images.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 144px; height: 193px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZ4aKiZqyDEe-eEi7IrDGB7Zw5jw5hy1bBBmfkojpfEwyG-QcSYftS0o-ahsaC2d_S_wtLa0zxNhBu49kSEWJWQXmXZC8w2J8MQRugxYIRAFqV830SLQmHsihxf9VE9adEAbN12I0-c16C/s400/images.jpeg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5536238547690297394" /></a><br />No, there has not been any movement with Baby I or you can call her Isa, Isla, Ivy, Isley or Imani. :-) Robbin told me I'm not stable right now; actually she told Celeste, but then she told me. What a friend, however she is right. You know that FBI list the APs made? I <b>never, ever, ever</b> checked it until recently, now I'm a mad woman about it! I must check that list 6 times a day. Oh, wait... I haven't checked it in a few hours I'll be back. Nothing new, just the same family who went on the waitlist the same day as I and they were referred twin girls (awesome). Hey, I want to know if anyone has gotten a referral before me! And if so, who? Then why! LOL LUNATIC! ME! I admit it! <div><br /></div><div>In my off lunatic moments, I am doing useful projects like repainting my house. Yes, my entire house. I was just bored with it. I decorated my house about 5 or more years ago and it just didn't reflect who I am today, so it was time to start over. I have plenty of energy now, what the heck. Word to the wise, don't come and visit me or if you do, don't stand still too long because if you do, I just may paint you. Guess I'll go back to painting the living room and sunroom. I'm a little ADD so I have to do like 2-3 projects at once. I'll let you know when everything is finished and send you to whatever blog is showing my home which will more than likely be <a href="http://www.desiretoinspire.net/">Desire to Inspire</a>. It won't be until the spring/summer, I'll let you know. </div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-1153849362381169542010-10-22T12:27:00.003-04:002010-10-22T12:49:00.223-04:00Well...Those who said 10.20 and 10.21 for referral dates? WRONG! <div><br /></div><div>Still no referral. </div><div><br /></div><div>No one said any day next week, I don't know if that is a good sign or a bad sign. </div><div><br /></div><div>Anywhoo...maybe next week is "the week."</div><div><br /></div><div>Have a great weekend!</div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-33870767050067737422010-10-18T13:13:00.004-04:002010-10-18T13:47:11.990-04:00Bi-Racial Hair Video...a must seeIf you have followed this blog since the beginning (silly you) then you know I used to be controversial. However, after three years (yes 3) I got old and tired, the adoption process beat me up and I was forced to chill out. Well, I've rested. Have lots of energy and starting to feel like the old me again, so I thought what better way to begin anew than to stir up a little controversy. I mean emotions...or maybe that is thinking. Dangit where are those strikeout functions for blogger?<div>;-)<div><br /></div><div>Warning: if you are new to this blog, please don't view the video below if: </div><div><ul><li>you want to remain in a bubble, have no feelings (either way)</li><li>think times are changing and racism doesn't exist and </li><li>think it's perfectly normal for the Duggars to have 1 more child. I don't know what the Duggars has to do with this video or post but seriously 19 kids? OUCHHHHHHHH</li></ul></div><div>So, here is the video Bi-Racial Hair. I had so many emotions when I viewed it. There were many umms and oohhs and yeahs and yups and wows that came out of my mouth. I had to view it twice. My cousin said she had to undergo some brief trauma counseling afterward. LOL Let me know what you think and we can have a deeper conversation in the comments section. </div><div><br /></div><div>Again...remember you have been warned. See this is the nicer, kinder, gentler Tami. </div><div><br /><object style="background-image:url(http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/RTnxJdxhU7o/hqdefault.jpg)" width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RTnxJdxhU7o?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RTnxJdxhU7o?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="425" height="344" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object></div></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-43697153383988419882010-10-17T15:30:00.003-04:002010-10-17T15:35:13.742-04:00How Old?Gotta get this one out there...How old do you think Baby I will be at referral? <div><br /></div><div>So far I have 3 guessing games going:</div><div><ul><li>Name</li><li>Age</li><li>Date </li></ul><div>Who will win? Maybe I can come up with some sort of prize but I tell you...you might not get it until next year! LOL Maybe the AW will mail it for me. </div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-48032610216982444802010-10-16T23:06:00.005-04:002010-10-16T23:22:57.228-04:00Top 5 Baby Names<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEix-PTmGW0E8AqOhm4ZDcyiR4IqxosH-uvgIUEVzhdOO_JaEh9XnAWTdSgh6OvF5cG-lmLwmIbijXVmtp2GRBZUX4CvOHDXbhzMB9LTMFOGqi9Y61MJnmH8Mf3BKGPIY7zEUgUT82qyrFJu/s1600/060babyL_468x523.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 358px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEix-PTmGW0E8AqOhm4ZDcyiR4IqxosH-uvgIUEVzhdOO_JaEh9XnAWTdSgh6OvF5cG-lmLwmIbijXVmtp2GRBZUX4CvOHDXbhzMB9LTMFOGqi9Y61MJnmH8Mf3BKGPIY7zEUgUT82qyrFJu/s400/060babyL_468x523.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528850001955092818" /></a><br />Well here are the top 5 baby names for Baby I. One is actually my sunshine's name:<ol><li>Ila</li><li>Isla</li><li>Ivy</li><li>Isley</li><li>Imani</li></ol><div>So many names, so little time. </div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-57555286787731017902010-10-15T23:07:00.003-04:002010-10-15T23:27:04.032-04:00Let's Play: Guess that Date!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiQmOVxroMfUxGxEpDIcvAj-UaUTs1Rluwb_NlAjcTqX0hnU2QmcZGUTqs0dugQi-as-GyyFWL6js4WdYYL4M74PuQyzJAXjt7QAbbp2HOFrJA8GDNo5TqU04YnQNV63pdGmf_UL0ZUzO5/s1600/images-5.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 232px; height: 217px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiQmOVxroMfUxGxEpDIcvAj-UaUTs1Rluwb_NlAjcTqX0hnU2QmcZGUTqs0dugQi-as-GyyFWL6js4WdYYL4M74PuQyzJAXjt7QAbbp2HOFrJA8GDNo5TqU04YnQNV63pdGmf_UL0ZUzO5/s400/images-5.jpeg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528479736882969410" /></a><br />I was told by the Adoption Whisperer (AW-Robbin) that it was time for me to play a few games. So, Robbin, here I go following the rules of the adoption blogdom (or is that blogsphere?). <div><br /></div><div>This game is just for shintz and giggles because I am terrible about mailing packages (sometimes they never get mailed). Sad, but true...so, there are NO prizes. Unless of course the AW wants to provide one to the winner. ;-) </div><div><br /></div><div>Moving on...passing time. </div><div><br /></div><div>When do you think I'll get my referral? </div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-88007963488628546982010-10-15T14:13:00.002-04:002010-10-15T14:19:34.794-04:00ARGGHHHHH!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNr8RIPPd4vDiv9NrOkN8al1Uu1jKWagVwhkyLfwNJDOvJfjLgVRAvGVGE6SaYqPV703Set5viCHmNeIQYpr_PdVJM8VzfHf0k2mKm6UgZhqAzCaw9ZLLyO6wSNy_ku0reOqULWRIQ6BUy/s1600/images-4.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 222px; height: 227px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhNr8RIPPd4vDiv9NrOkN8al1Uu1jKWagVwhkyLfwNJDOvJfjLgVRAvGVGE6SaYqPV703Set5viCHmNeIQYpr_PdVJM8VzfHf0k2mKm6UgZhqAzCaw9ZLLyO6wSNy_ku0reOqULWRIQ6BUy/s400/images-4.jpeg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528339093220418402" /></a><br />Nothing else left to say!Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-82979327358616957852010-10-09T12:13:00.005-04:002010-10-09T12:45:23.674-04:00Entrance to WonderThere would have been no wonder without the doorway that Alice finally managed to enter. That colorful and whimsical doorway foretold what adventures were waiting for Alice on the other side. <div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja1P18VyNWm-s2MMd_25pvqrN-Qp1mqHu3IhLvUTgU5-gya6mbgRX7lg0vqd9EButoNyPmlmKfSyRKVni5BAAdHX5PSjitk914t11KKgrGzSyPesGhWGZbz_Fgh62iSmp77BhRYC1d9Gsd/s1600/images-3.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 259px; height: 194px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEja1P18VyNWm-s2MMd_25pvqrN-Qp1mqHu3IhLvUTgU5-gya6mbgRX7lg0vqd9EButoNyPmlmKfSyRKVni5BAAdHX5PSjitk914t11KKgrGzSyPesGhWGZbz_Fgh62iSmp77BhRYC1d9Gsd/s400/images-3.jpeg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526086162943114194" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDykThrVa444OvBEoxlbvCsxAFKubbA_o8_T0TTp7s7VYFlDr3lTcthxPhk-TJc_BpYbxFskDpw6-wCALmUECzlraSuJUqWPXW_CPUnJjYImjLWk7ymzIE73umBa82pJ3MbfINUi3CVcHY/s1600/images-1.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 251px; height: 201px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDykThrVa444OvBEoxlbvCsxAFKubbA_o8_T0TTp7s7VYFlDr3lTcthxPhk-TJc_BpYbxFskDpw6-wCALmUECzlraSuJUqWPXW_CPUnJjYImjLWk7ymzIE73umBa82pJ3MbfINUi3CVcHY/s400/images-1.jpeg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526085989930481506" /></a><br />That must mean that Baby I must have a fabulous door for her room and life of wonder to come. You got it! I bought my baby a new door today (the room didn't have a door so and any ole door would not do, nope!). </div><div><br /></div><div>Behold the entrance to Baby I's Wonderland (oh, the picture stinks b/c I have no camera). It is so tiny it's anti-climatic I know but you get the point. :-).</div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz5x466sDsdx7zZg6ai60nVX8TDqIeHuIfdxEkPgEhVTLJ0JME9Aej1Kdt8h2nL7Fxgdir4HXblWVZOtv07OAFNNZ3Mw5Fhi1NZP-IAj_Z2DnRbIxGc14_Da6UzJq7Xvy8gWy9HBm5HH0L/s1600/52c74043d6481abb90840611a5788eef.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 45px; height: 100px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz5x466sDsdx7zZg6ai60nVX8TDqIeHuIfdxEkPgEhVTLJ0JME9Aej1Kdt8h2nL7Fxgdir4HXblWVZOtv07OAFNNZ3Mw5Fhi1NZP-IAj_Z2DnRbIxGc14_Da6UzJq7Xvy8gWy9HBm5HH0L/s400/52c74043d6481abb90840611a5788eef.png" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5526086501526593762" /></a>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-33062242656455211422010-10-07T13:17:00.002-04:002010-10-07T13:21:07.519-04:00Adoption TimelineWhy is it that my last Adoption Timeline update was 12/9/09? <div><br /></div><div><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">LOL</span> </div><div><br /></div><div>I pretty much suck. </div><div><br /></div><div>Hey Robbin? </div><div><br /></div><div>Can you give me some dates for this timeline? You keep my dates better than me! </div><div><br /></div><div>Guess I'll update them this weekend! </div><div><br /></div><div>BTW...I'm going crazy over here. I must be if I'm blogging when I know no one reads! I think I'll email <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Gladney</span>! <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">LOL</span> </div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-54133386735213144072010-10-06T22:48:00.003-04:002010-10-06T23:17:24.747-04:00Today I Shed a Tear (Tears)<div>Today I shed my first adoption tear. </div><div><br /></div><div>No, I had a big cry and it was at work.</div><div><br /></div><div>Why?</div><div><br /></div><div>A former co-worker had just returned from a soul searching two-month trip to India to visit her birth and adoptive parents. She was talking about how great the trip was, but at some point in the conversation she mentioned how her birth mother had been sad at different points in her life (she knew her, although she didn't find out that it was her birth mother until she was an adult) about giving her up for adoption (to a family member). At that point it clicked that my excitement (about this adoption) was at the cost of someone's grief. How excited I was, but how sad a mother and family must be to be giving a child up. That made my heart literally hurt and stomach sink, I just started crying at work. My friend had to come across the desk and calm me down then take me and buy me hot chocolate. She provided as much encouragement and support as she could and the only words I could muster were:</div><div><br /></div><div>"I just want to do the right thing and be a great mother." </div><div><br /></div><div>I guess as I'm on the final countdown to my referral it is getting very real and these are probably normal worries. I just pray that the little spirit that God blesses me to watch over that her birth mother and family have enough faith to know that she will be ok. That God has placed her with a mother who has been preparing for her and waiting for her for a long time. That she will love, support, guide and raise her to be a proud, smart, respectful, Christian, fun loving, creative and confidant woman. Proud to be all that she is by birth and by growth. Baby I has much to look forward to and as her mother so do I and even with the tears today and the ones I will undoubtedly have to come, SO DO I! I can't wait. </div><div><br /></div><div>Stay Tuned...</div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-9162761482067745692010-10-06T07:54:00.009-04:002010-10-09T12:45:54.607-04:00Baby I in WonderlandI'm working on the nursery! If you didn't remember (how could you since it was years ago) I am a part time interior decorator, so I am somewhat particular when it comes to my design. Translation very slow! I have been thinking about this nursery for a year! LOL It is going to be a combination of the following three rooms -- if you have any imagination but there won't be any big pictures of panties I promise! I started to block that out but it made me laugh so I left it alone, I figured you would scratch your head a little and say what the heck is that Tami up to now? In my house we are calling it Baby I in Wonderland. ;-)<div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpEIIeMy1xskfTZJtlhI1B2d8B7JegPoMV-ibxYJnga8o_zYjSfokXAtBTnYLM1_HO8X_LmnVcsWdzp-0_73-j9QvUbSNP2YS14fYlvFTOXpzQy0o1MSevePwWeeHSBgUQzCt-B-WgpvHh/s1600/ja.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 375px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpEIIeMy1xskfTZJtlhI1B2d8B7JegPoMV-ibxYJnga8o_zYjSfokXAtBTnYLM1_HO8X_LmnVcsWdzp-0_73-j9QvUbSNP2YS14fYlvFTOXpzQy0o1MSevePwWeeHSBgUQzCt-B-WgpvHh/s400/ja.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5525037012797212866" /></a><br /><div><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLYgGKBJhhCKR1wmxwLg5gR9C_u7U9Rg4az_0pykkoXS3Bb6XjcKwbCWIwfOFjXruLVsczdpN9lxiW-XlBclBi-uyOib6dZnghJh83Uw09tmyW7NuoNmYY-8A26o42Pps3a16xYsB9bAr0/s1600/chambersnursery1.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 267px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLYgGKBJhhCKR1wmxwLg5gR9C_u7U9Rg4az_0pykkoXS3Bb6XjcKwbCWIwfOFjXruLVsczdpN9lxiW-XlBclBi-uyOib6dZnghJh83Uw09tmyW7NuoNmYY-8A26o42Pps3a16xYsB9bAr0/s400/chambersnursery1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5524935598860668834" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3e-k4zn9upGa7Zhn7T_LlRZA9JlwvQUrMBq9GGCKX-sP3ADQpfw7Rtrp9VseNhMJ30Vg7oY8afoNljgkuRA7aFgep3Nq1L7tI1voBFp4gUEXcWElFBGJ0_3GMqQKk2MFg6BnxYccLUWlK/s1600/9.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 342px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3e-k4zn9upGa7Zhn7T_LlRZA9JlwvQUrMBq9GGCKX-sP3ADQpfw7Rtrp9VseNhMJ30Vg7oY8afoNljgkuRA7aFgep3Nq1L7tI1voBFp4gUEXcWElFBGJ0_3GMqQKk2MFg6BnxYccLUWlK/s400/9.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5524935473326855266" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjb2mXDq-RIeyMxpcgsSstwwi3Gy7vNWmsSBxsLCeNEtZeoBXiZVFPiiWzS0pWoP4pRTQTapfmUMCJumRSbutUihc6PODwzuLekxvyIbEP_o0TUyAh5crgkcUtkxZXXSYH6y7aW48wPHSXG/s1600/lilys-room-SLK-SatC.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 224px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjb2mXDq-RIeyMxpcgsSstwwi3Gy7vNWmsSBxsLCeNEtZeoBXiZVFPiiWzS0pWoP4pRTQTapfmUMCJumRSbutUihc6PODwzuLekxvyIbEP_o0TUyAh5crgkcUtkxZXXSYH6y7aW48wPHSXG/s400/lilys-room-SLK-SatC.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5524935279919253458" /></a><br /></div></div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1743328224750449132.post-24122675646174855112010-10-04T18:54:00.002-04:002010-10-04T19:16:48.465-04:00Because I like it!Well, I would narrow the names down but why spoil all the fun? Maybe you guessed it. Maybe you didn't. Will my feelings be hurt if you don't like my kid's name? Nope! Why? Because...I like it! And so will my little Baby I.<div><br /></div><div>No referral news yet. </div>Tamihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15098095150932626218noreply@blogger.com4