6th Folder/6th Photo

No one tagged me, but over at Kerri's blog she was too lazy to do, so I just tagged myself (these are her words, not mine).  The rules are: go to the 6th folder in my photos folder and post the 6th picture in the folder and then tag 6 people. 

My 6th folder happens to be a folder for all things Baby I.  Following is the 6th picture which is one of the ideas that I like for her nursery.  I am going to be raising a little prima donna to take my throne you know!  I don't like the fabric choices but I do like the inspiration for the design:

Here is another picture I like (not the fabric choices).  Clearly, not the 6th photo, but we are moving beyond that now.  

I tag...Celeste, Robbin, Valarie, Nancy (Beautiful Children), Laura, and Tracey (Amara's Mom).

No Baby but Baby's Table

As I've said before, I'm addicted to vintage/thrift stores...and freecycle and craigslist and ebay and outlet malls and...  This morning I met a friend at our local Value Village Thrift Store where we find some great deals and one of a kind items.  Today, I found a great vintage table for Baby I.  Love.  I decided the table would look great in the "new" sunroom that I have been working on since I got rid of the hot tub.  

Ohhh...ahhh...and it is orange!  Look at those mushroom tops and lovely lines.  Brady Bunch eat your heart out!  Love at first sight.  It fits perfectly with my decor.  Did I mention it was $24.82 less my 25% discount card.  LOL  Yes, I have a discount card to Value Village.

Mommy's Table...Baby I's Table  

Domestic Foster/Adoption Also?

While I'm waiting for Baby I besides doing the normal things like shopping, working out and de-cluttering I've been watching a lot of TV.  OK so that is normal too, but I've been watching a lot of programs related to adoption, foster care and Ethiopia.  I may as well tug the heart strings for the next year or so.  

If you didn't know, before I made the decision to adopt from Ethiopia I considered adopting domestically but decided to wait until Baby I was home.  I've always wanted at least two children so a second domestic adoption is a real possibility.   I even completed all of my course work through DC Children and Family Services to adopt/foster from the city.  I was never quite sure if this was the right path for me but I've been thinking more and more about it lately.  

Over the Christmas Holidays I watched the TV special with Faith Hill Home for the Holidays where they celebrated adoption and showed a number of adoptive families telling their stories.  I sat in front of the TV for those few hours crying and thinking about older children needing homes just as much as I think about the children in Ethiopia needing homes.  I then knew I also had to foster/adopt a child from the States once Baby I came home.  There are so many children everywhere that need families, I just really want to live in a mansion and love up on them all day long.  

This past weekend I watched a Lifetime movie (TiVo) about a young man (America) in the foster care system.  Rosie O'Donnell is the psychiatrist that helps him come to terms with his roller coaster life.  


 

In typical Tami fashion, I got emotional.  I got knots in my stomach...the I have to do something else kind.  I just can't take it!  All of these statistics are killing me.

More than half of a million kids in foster care.  Once they age out of the system only 2 out of 10 will make it.  The others will end up homeless, in prison or dead.  I know adopting/fostering older children comes with other issues but someone has to do it.  But of course it is all just talk now, I really have to think all of this through and do a whole lot of planning.  A whole lot!  Maybe winning the lotto would be a plus also!  

No News is Just... Purgatory

I haven't had any dreams.  

I haven't done any shopping.

My agency is not providing any hope.

I'm just here.  

Frustrated with the whole process but still here.  I have friends that started the process with me being put on waitlist but not me...I can only wait until my time which apparently is FOREVER!!!!!!!  

I feel like I'm stuck in purgatory!  

Am I a tad bit annoyed?

Yup!  Purgatory.  Annoyed.  

Oh, well.  Even if all singles were grandfathered with the current waitlist Baby I probably wouldn't be home until the summer of 2010 anyway.  What's 6 more months right?  I'm praying for a late summer 2010 referral and picking my Baby Girl up Dec. 2010.  I don't even want to talk about the new rumors that all singles are going to be banned come Sept. 2009, that is just too much for me even to deal with at this moment.  

I guess it is just the fact that I am being told they can't and won't even look at my paperwork until the 2010-2011 court year that sits on a nerve.  

I just want my baby home!!!!!!!!

OK...back to regularly scheduled programing!  

Thanks for listening/reading.  

My Dream

Now, I'm starting to have crazy dreams...thanks Robbin.  

I was at a vintage store and this woman, who I have never seen before, walked up to me and said "I heard for sure that we won't have to wait as long as they say for our children to come home."  I said "really, how do you know?"  She said "she spoke with someone from another agency who has a contact at MOWA."  She was writing the name down for me, but she didn't have a piece of paper, so she started writing, with a marker, on an antique tortoise shell plate.  I was looking at her like are you serious but of course I just wanted the information so I didn't stop her.  In the meantime, the owner came over and was very calm about it.  She just sprayed a solution that took the name away...the name was Amy Enfarri or something like that.  She then brought back a nasty mop for us to use to clean up the mess on the plate.  I asked if she had paper towels.  She said "no paper towels were available for vandals, we could use the mop then leave."  Of course we would be banned for life from the store.  I wanted so badly to say BANNED I didn't do the writing, I didn't have the pen in my hand, I don't even know this chick, but I just wanted that number of Amy Enfarri so I didn't say a word...I just waited for the unnamed vandal to finish writing the name on a piece of paper to hand to me.  Then the TV minister woke me up.  

One side of me wants to say this dream is a good sign.  The other side says this dream happened because we have been obsessing about finding every little detail about what is going on and trying to predict how long the wait will really be.  What to do?  What to do?  But, I don't really remember my dreams.  So, I'm going to go with this was a sign and that we will all be grandfathered in and Baby I will be home soon.  

BTW...if you haven't figured it out, I'm checking in from time to time.  I can't leave you guys...so now I have 2 blogs!  

I Miss This Blog!

I miss my blog!!!!  BUT...nothing is going on and (they say) will happen in my adoption until the 2010-2011 court year.  I have nothing to write about!  Whaw whaw.  

Just a little venting!  

New Blog

I finally did it!  

I have a new blog, Middle Rageously.

Come on over and visit and maybe you will come visit more often.  

I plan on shutting this site down at the beginning of the year so please come visit before then.