I’ve found trying to do me, takes more energy and time than I thought (who knew?). I have FINALLY admitted that I cannot do it ALL! This is a major resolution for me so I deserve some kudos for this people! But guess what? I’m okay with that. I don’t want to be superwoman anymore, just the best woman I can be. Hell, superwoman isn’t real anyway and all of those women who say they can do it all (I think) are on Prozac, Xanex or some other drug running around trying to do it all! Not me. I’m going to take my little piece of the pie and move on. Now, I just need to figure out what kind of pie I want! ☺ Too many choices!!!!!
I’ve let go of several “friendships” this summer that meant no good for Baby I or me. I’ve stopped discussing my plans with everyone because I finally get that not everyone cares about them. If I were pregnant, they would be totally happy with hearing all of my plans and so supportive, but since I’m not they are not interested…too bad for them. I’ve learned to stop justifying who I am and my choices for my life and for Baby I. I mean come on people…I’m almost 40 years old; don’t you think I’ve thought this through?
On the adoption front…because I was on the slow road I was just told that even though my home study was just approved in March my first home study visit was in October so guess what that means? I have to have my entire home study updated, which essentially means done over!!!!! Can you say MORE $$$$$$ and MORE documentation!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!. One of the new guidelines for Gladney is that we don’t curse on our blogs (and I’m trying to eliminate the use of those words from my vocabulary, but I can’t help but still think them in times of frustration…hey I know them!) so I can’t put any curse words here but please fill in all the ones you know right here $$##@@@@&&&!!!!...this is how I feel. I know it is not Gladney’s fault that I was on the slow road, but what can I do…NADA! In the end when Baby I is home and in my arms will I really care about the extra everything? NOPE..OF COURSE NOT, but right now how am I feeling????