I found out a few days ago that the love of my life was getting a divorce (after less than a year of marriage). Now, I hate to hear that anyone is getting a divorce but I'm not going to tell a lie I was pretty happy that he was going to be "free" again. I immediately thought that there could be a chance for us again. After all I have NEVER loved anyone the way I loved him. My friend thought it would be a good idea if I sent him an email to see if he was open to having a conversation with me about "us." HMMM...I thought about it then (after a few days) I said...
"Nah...maybe I'll reach out to him one day and send him a picture of me and my kid...but right now I'm doing really well and am very happy, let's not rock the boat. I have faith that who/what God has for me is for me. I've just learned how to be still so that is what I am going to do...be still."
I must be doing something right because I was in the grocery store yesterday and a guy walked up to me and gave me his number. The guy behind the seafood counter was flirting with me and gave me a free crab leg (small favors I know but I'll take the flirts where I get them). I had a conference today and a guy I met immediately sent me an email asking me to lunch. Then I had lunch with a client and a woman two tables down gave me her business card (no she wasn't flirting, she had a wedding ring on...okay that doesn't mean anything does it).
So, when I said "nah" to my friend I honestly meant it. Maybe it really put me in another space and other people felt it because I haven't had this much action since I was in the hospital a year and a half ago! Yes, that is pretty sad! Well, as for the ex, all I have ever wanted for him was to be happy, I hope he heals and finds some peace and happiness. Wow...if you know me and you knew me then, you can really say...Now that's growth! I love being thirty something!