Friday, July 27, 2007

Now That's Growth!

I found out a few days ago that the love of my life was getting a divorce (after less than a year of marriage). Now, I hate to hear that anyone is getting a divorce but I'm not going to tell a lie I was pretty happy that he was going to be "free" again. I immediately thought that there could be a chance for us again. After all I have NEVER loved anyone the way I loved him. My friend thought it would be a good idea if I sent him an email to see if he was open to having a conversation with me about "us." HMMM...I thought about it then (after a few days) I said...

"Nah...maybe I'll reach out to him one day and send him a picture of me and my kid...but right now I'm doing really well and am very happy, let's not rock the boat. I have faith that who/what God has for me is for me. I've just learned how to be still so that is what I am going to do...be still."

I must be doing something right because I was in the grocery store yesterday and a guy walked up to me and gave me his number. The guy behind the seafood counter was flirting with me and gave me a free crab leg (small favors I know but I'll take the flirts where I get them). I had a conference today and a guy I met immediately sent me an email asking me to lunch. Then I had lunch with a client and a woman two tables down gave me her business card (no she wasn't flirting, she had a wedding ring on...okay that doesn't mean anything does it).

So, when I said "nah" to my friend I honestly meant it. Maybe it really put me in another space and other people felt it because I haven't had this much action since I was in the hospital a year and a half ago! Yes, that is pretty sad! Well, as for the ex, all I have ever wanted for him was to be happy, I hope he heals and finds some peace and happiness. Wow...if you know me and you knew me then, you can really say...Now that's growth! I love being thirty something!

2 comments:

chou-chou said...

A free crab leg?? Girl, in some countries that is a proposal!!

Seriously though, it is a really good feeling to be able to say "nah" to something like that, and to have some peace about it.

Plus, your good juju is obviously flowing now (witness the crab leg) and that is a good thing no matter how it gets going. :-)

xoxo

chou-chou

p.s. Thanks for your comment on my blog - really appreciate it. You crack me up about the car decision - and you sound a lot like me!!

Melissa said...

OH man. How come this NEVER ever happens to me anywhere?! Esp. not the grocery store.

*sigh*